Monday, June 11, 2007


today is our three year anniversary. i feel blessed to have married such a sound and steady man as tommy. i had the opportunity to chat with him online using webcams a few times this past week, and it was a lot of fun. of course, he keeps wanted to see my belly and commenting on how big it's getting. and i just want to see him smile.

it's been a challenging three years, to be honest, primarily because his job. this is our third deployment since we got married, and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier for either of us. i miss him more now than ever. i wish he was here to feel the baby move and help with the preparations. i wish he was here...just to have him here. i hate going to bed and waking up alone. even the dogs don't like to sleep in his spot. we're saving it for him.

hopefully the next few month will go quickly, and i'm praying he'll be home in time for Christmas. we've missed every one of our birthdays and anniversaries, and i know he won't be home for the baby's arrival, but i'm not prepared to give up Christmas this year, too.

i love you, thomas j. i hope you get a chance to call today, but if not, i know we'll talk soon. can't wait to see you again in a few months. happy anniversary.

Saturday, June 02, 2007

feeling chuffed!

it's hard to shake the underlying sadness of missing my husband every day, but on days like today, at least it's easy to distract myself!

i got a new shipment of maternity clothes in today. fabulous! i loved every single peice and only have to exchange two camisoles for largers sizes. (a medium shirt i can do, a medium camisole i can not!) i also stopped by Proud to be Pregnant, a little boutique in Bury St Edmunds specializing in maternity clothes and FINALLY found the perfect bra! this has seriousy been an agonizing search, and i was so excited when i found it that i bought two! hooray for new clothes and finding great bras!

then i picked up some cherries and stawberries from the market. seriously, summer is the best time to be a fruit lover! mm! i love LOVE cherries. it makes me so happy when they are in season.

and then i drove home on the A134 with my windows down, blasting BBC Radio 1, which was playing great music this afternoon! great radio days are like receiving an unexpected package in the mail - you just feel like the luckiest person in the world to hear a string of songs you'd love to sing at the top of your lungs. i've really been bitten by the British pop rock music bug. i'm loving the Fratellis, the Kieser Chiefs, and the Halloways among others.

took the dogs for a walk this afternoon. the walks are getting shorter and shorter. we only went for a half hour, and i was exhausted by the end! i guess the fact that i had been walking around Bury St Edmunds all afternoon in the sun may have contributed. but there was a day when an hour-long walk was nothing. the strangest thing is that the longer i walk, the weirder my belly feels. it's like towards the end, the baby settles right to the front of my belly, almost pressing outward, which is such a strange sensation. by that point, all i want to do is sit down!

then i finished the day off with a freezer pop! i haven't had one in years and bought a box the other week. snipped off the top and enjoyed a watermelon freezer pop. they are even better than i remember! and only 25 calories! :)

okay, i need to go paint my toenails so i can show them off in my new old navy sandals! have a great weekend!