today is our three year anniversary. i feel blessed to have married such a sound and steady man as tommy. i had the opportunity to chat with him online using webcams a few times this past week, and it was a lot of fun. of course, he keeps wanted to see my belly and commenting on how big it's getting. and i just want to see him smile.
it's been a challenging three years, to be honest, primarily because his job. this is our third deployment since we got married, and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier for either of us. i miss him more now than ever. i wish he was here to feel the baby move and help with the preparations. i wish he was here...just to have him here. i hate going to bed and waking up alone. even the dogs don't like to sleep in his spot. we're saving it for him.
hopefully the next few month will go quickly, and i'm praying he'll be home in time for Christmas. we've missed every one of our birthdays and anniversaries, and i know he won't be home for the baby's arrival, but i'm not prepared to give up Christmas this year, too.
i love you, thomas j. i hope you get a chance to call today, but if not, i know we'll talk soon. can't wait to see you again in a few months. happy anniversary.