Oh, boy. I'm nervous.
I'm returning to work on Tuesday for the first time since Caleb was born. And I do mean returning, as I'm going back to the credit union I worked for while I was pregnant. I'll be starting off as a part-time teller and going from there.
Caleb has a spot at the Child Development Center on base and starts the same day I go back to work. We met the assistant director and his room leader yesterday. The room he's in is so very cute and fun, and we like the two care givers we met. Caleb had a ton of fun in the 20 minutes we were there. Our orientation with the director was very reassuring. We learned a lot about the policies and procedures in place that made us feel comfortable.
I've been looking for a job for a couple of months, and now that it's happening, it feels so fast! I feel ready on one hand, and on the other hand I wonder if I'll ever be truly ready. I feel so blessed that I've been able to spend the first 15 months of Caleb's life hanging out with him every day. I know it's going to be a challenging transition to leave him at day care, probably more so for me than for him. I'm fortunate that he doesn't really seem to have any separation anxiety, so this is probably a good time for this transition. But even if this is the perfect time for this change, I know I'll probably be a blubbering mess on Tuesday morning. (And yet, I think, even if I waited until he want to Kindergarten to send him off on his own, I'd still be a blubbering mess, right?)
Anyway, I'm nervous and excited about returning to work, but most of it has to do with Caleb going into day care. It's kind of nice to be returning to a company I've already worked for, although it will certainly present its own challenges this time around. I'll be working at a different branch on a different base with different management and different coworkers. But it's nice to know I'll have a much quicker learning curve that I would have at a brand new job. I won't be completely clueless on my first day.
Knowing I'll be more comfortable on my first day of work is also reassuring because I'll be starting one of my six day on-site classes the same night. So on Caleb's' first day in day care, and my first day back at work, I'll have to clock out and go straight to class for the first four nights, and then a full day on Saturday and Sunday. Uggh. I'm not looking forward to this AT ALL. I know I'll probably go nuts, but that's just the way it's worked out, unfortunately. I just keep reminding myself that it's only 6 days long, and then I can work on getting settled in and being less crazy.
Until then, I'm trying to enjoy my last days at home with Caleb and get all my homework done for class! Wish me luck!